On the Day You Were Born

A large part of me doing this blog is to be an electronic journal of life.  Notebooks and papers can get lost, torn, and ruined but with a blog, I can login literally from anywhere and re-read old posts or write new ones.  On the day Ryan was born, I typed a letter to her on my iPhone as I tried desperately to keep my exhausted eyes open. I wanted Ryan to forever know how I felt on that day, and here's what I said:

8-24-13

Dear Ryan,

Today was the most amazing day of my life.  Your father and I waited anxiously by the phone last night, texting with your biological mom until about 11:30.  Then, we left Lexington and drove fast--must faster than we really should have--so we could get to the hospital in time to see you come into this world.  At 6:10 a.m. on Saturday, August 24, 2013 you entered this world and mine was forever changed.  I saw you take your first breath, heard your first cry, watched you get weighed, measured, and cleaned up.  Then, they wrapped you up like a burrito and a few moments later, you were in my arms.  The feeling I had as I looked into your beautiful face is something I can't describe.  Your perfect little lips moved open and closed as your experimented with your newly found tongue to see how it would work.  You opened your eyes for a second, only to shut them right back to block out the bright lights.  You were so beautiful.  So perfect, so soft and sweet and innocent and I knew I would do anything to protect you from harm.  Thoughts of what you'll look like, how you'll act, whether you'll like school or soccer or what you might want to be when you grow up--all of these things raced through my head when I looked at you.  Watching your dad hold you and stare into your face made my heart melt a hundred times over today.  Ryan, please know how loved you are, how wanted you are, and what an amazing and perfect gift you are to your father and me.  We already love you more than we knew was possible and we've only known you for 15 hours. :)  You have filled a part in our hearts that could never have been filled by anyone or anything else.  I love you to the moon and back.  Ryan Michelle Lynch, our perfect gift from God above.  We were meant for each other.

Love,
Your Mommy